This morning David and I shared a 2 1/2 hour long breakfast with some dear friends at Eggspectation. But that doesn’t really relate to what I’m thinking about. Except for the ‘expectation’ part. Which really doesn’t include eggs at all.
Regardless, there’s this thing about marriage proposals these days – that the good ones are big and creative and wildly romantic. And I don’t want to be nit-picky, but I can honestly say that, after David and I were engaged, my heart would struggle when friends pulled up Youtube videos of flamboyant and uber-romantic wedding proposals, because … most guys don’t do it like that. And I felt like those viral videos establish (sometimes subconscious) expectations for what your one-day proposal should be like.
And I hated it, because in my heart I still believed it. That the romantic ones were the best, and indicated more love. Even though I knew it was a lie, I still believed it. That’s why Ann Voskamp’s ponderings today were like refreshing truths for an indwardly-focused soul like me. She said, when talking to her sons about the way their father proposed to her:
Boring. I know. When you’ve watched a few dozen mastermind proposals on youtube … marveling at how real romance has an imagination like that.
Can I tell you something sons?
Romance isn’t measured by how viral your proposal goes. The internet age may try to sell you something different, but don’t ever forget that viral is closely associated with sickness – so don’t ever make being viral your goal. Your goal is always to make your Christ-focus contagious – to just one person. It’s more than just imagining some romantic proposal.
It’s a man who imagines washing puked-on sheets at 2:30am, plunging out a full and plugged toilet for the third time this week, and then scraping out the crud in the bottom screen of the dishwasher – every single night for the next 37 years without any cameras rolling or soundtrack playing – that’s imagining true romance.
When I feed my soul more on the world and less on the Word, I fall prey to the lies that Ann was addressing. I do look for the imaginative romantic, and overlook the day to day acts of love. Like just being willing to move into our apartment before the electricity was turned on, because I had been so looking forward to it. Or eating some donuts together on a Saturday morning. Or getting school done so that we can watch a movie on our laptop together.
So basically. From my heart to yours (I’m imagining you in my head right now), just be sensitive to processing what you’re taking in as you scroll through Facebook, Pinterest, Youtube, and Instagram. Whether it’s marriage proposals or anything else, don’t let expectations be built up subconsciously. If nothing else, at least be conscious of them as they build. Because then you can take them before God – quieting your heart before Him – and ask Him to point out through His Word where your heart is believing lies.
Or something like that.